Misty is OK'd for surgery!!!

I don't know why I wrote that in 3rd person, but ah well.

I went to my doctor today to find out the results of my heart test. I got good news, and bad news, but either way, I was cleared for surgery. I find out tomorrow what time it will be and then I will be there on Weds! I can't believe it is finally here. After all the heartache and turmoil over this surgery, I am happy it's finally happening. I am scared too though, which I don't know if I should be or not. I guess anyone who is fearful of surgery is pretty normal, but I think my fear is a little different. I don't think I am afraid of the actual procedure, or the healing time, but I am fearful of 2 thing. 1. Not being in control of my body, while being under the anesthesia and 2. The biopsy results.

I don't know when I will get those, but I will let you know once I do!

More Mayhem...

Gosh... I don't even think I know where to begin right now.

It has been a crazy day today. I found out that my surgery has been rescheduled for next Wednesday, the 19th. I don't know what time yet, but at least it is scheduled. I have to have an echocardiogram/stress test done this Wednesday, the 12th at 11am. Then, I have to meet with my doctor on the 17th, so he can clear me for the surgery. It is just really stressful right now and I am, I guess you could say, FREAKING out. I am nervous about the surgery itself, now I have to worry about this stress test and hope everything goes ok. In a way, I suppose it is good because we are making sure my heart will be ok with the anesthesia.

I took my final exams today. It was scheduled for the 17th, but since we thought my surgery was going to be this Wednesday (12/12), my teacher allowed me to take them today. They weren't easy, but I think I did ok.

I don't know though. Have you ever felt like you knew something was wrong, but couldn't put your finger on it... that is how I feel right now.

Oh! Since our computer died, I thought I would ask any of you who read this to email/send me pictures if you have any that you think I would enjoy. The only ones I have available right now are our wedding ones, thus my profile picture. Such a happy time, my wedding day... :o)

Anyways, please be praying for me this Wednesday and Next Monday/Wednesday.

I forgot to post some pictures from when I made my first turkey... so here are a few.




Also, here is a cake I made for my work's Christmas Party... Yummmmmmm

Depressed, yet again.

I had my phone call with the anestheologist today. He wanted to go through the checklist before my surgery. Sad thing is, he wants to cancel it (my surgery) because he thinks I will have a heart attack on the table. This is PSYCHO!

So here I am... depressed. I now have to live with my tumor(s) some more until I get cleared for the surgery... and who knows when that will be.

Work is going ok... although there is some CRAZY things happening there. I think it would be best if I were to just keep my mouth shut... although I think someone is going to get burned really bad. I guess I will have to pray about it to see what I have to do. I feel like I am stuck between a rock and a hard place on this one.

Other than that... I don't know how I am. I had a long good talk/cry with Brian last night. It felt so good to be able to release all the tension I feel inside of me.

I hate not having a computer at home... I hate that my semester officially ends on Monday (the 10th) while every one else's ends on the 17th... because that will be the end of me on here until we can get another computer. School starts again on the 14th of January, so if I do not post until then, have a good day.